"Look for a way to lift someone UP. And if that's all you do, that's enough!"
My co-worker's are perfect examples of doing just that."
The last couple weeks on my days off I have spent in Indy trying to get blood drawn.
Taking a step back and watching the Lord work through my health struggles hasn't always been easy.
In fact it has been a up and down hill battle.
My heart gets so heavy for all the people in our world who have any kind of health battle.
"One day the Lord is going to use you Chelsi."
During my teen years I think I thought this was all junk.
Thinking what could the Lord possibly use this for?
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I think the Lord allows us to face battles to look around and understand how loved we are through them.
I'll admit my mindset for the last two weeks has been "Jesus, how can I love me if I look so different?"
I get teary eyed every time I think back to how unworthy I really am.
But how worthy Jesus has seen me to be.
Placing me in a position where all I have to give is my whole heart.
And that is enough.
Emily, and I with the help of our owner has started Chick-fil-A huddle videos weekly!
Emily and I have been so excited about these.
This past week I had texted her saying "I don't want to send this video out. The camera is jerky in it because of me."
Her reply "Chelsi...It looks GREAT!!! So not another word."
The last two weeks being in Indy hasn't only effected myself but the ones around me.
It wasn't until Friday that I really saw that.
I have an owner that does not baby dystonia.
And I am SO glad he doesn't. No one needs that.
He isn't bothered at all with any of my movements...even if it's to his computer or Coke Zero almost spilling everywhere."
He in fact this past week said "What are you going to do about it Chels?"
Tough love is sometimes exactly what we need the most!
From this beautiful friend/coworker pulling me aside to have a heart to heart chat.
Sometimes, you just need some girl time!
When you walk through battles but everywhere you go Jesus places that friend, that coworker, that role model, that ends up being the face of Jesus to you.
I had NO idea that I would have so many fighting the battle with me.
That would be willing to walk through the good but stick by me like glue through the bad.
The three nurses that would help draw my blood.
The three nurses who have been following the journey for a few years now.
The three nurses that when you feel really bad about not being able to hold completely still they are right there making sure you know that it's OK.
I have been really overwhelmed lately.
The facts are:
I have bad days
I have good days
I have days where my battles don't bother me
I have days where my battles knock me down
Somehow Jesus always brings my heart back to him.
Keeping my focus on how loved I am through the good and through the bad.
And let me tell you the bad days aren't easy for anyone around me.
But they deal with it when it comes with such grace.
SUCH GRACE.
It is the simplest things in my life that make my heart so FULL.
When your counting a draw and feeling like you suck at about everything but no worries because you "accidentally" hit the wrong button and this pops up.
You have a HUGE smile on your face which travels to your team for the night.
They were tired.
Ready to go home
But the smiles say it all.
Funny how one simple message can pour and I mean POUR into a whole restaurant of employees!
They were asked today why they love working at CFA so much.
All of them answered with "I feel so loved and wanted."
Amazing how ONE person can impact so many lives...
It's like Craig always says "Improving lives, inspiring happiness!"
(Only took me ten months to learn that it's Improving lives. And not Inspiring lives)
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I feel as if these past two weeks have shown me how loved and wanted I am.
And how true it is that the sky is the limit.
The toughest part of the journey is always the waiting.
Waiting for results.
Praying for answers.
The Lord knows that my heart longs for answers.
Not a cure but some kind of answers that pen point our diagnosis a little better.
Explaining what doctors just can not.
It's a hard feeling to feel.
You want answers but then you don't because it's unknown.
Unknown what the answers really are.
If there is any or will ever be any?
All I know is that I have come so far!
From my conversations being "yep." "Good."
to opening up with friends and family more and more.
Letting them know it's been a crappy day...but I'll be ok!
I am learning communication is vital.
It's been a growing thing for me since August!
When your owner is as stubborn as you are if not more you really have no chance of dodging communication.
A team lead who has a pretty good understanding of how dystonia works.
A week ago both her and I were sitting in the office when another team member asked a question. Rebekah answered "She has dystonia." Helping me explain it perfectly! I was SO grateful for that too because I still have a tough time explaining it so others will understand it.
She jumps in without asking doing whatever is needed.
Showing love and grace while doing it.
Knowing that teamwork will get us through!
It's not always easy on her (even though she will say "Chelsi it's really not a big deal).
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Alexis, Who will drop what she is doing to help. And makes sure I'm ok every single time she is at work.
Tamma, Who makes my heart so full. And is that Mamma to me while at the store.
A Mother who worries.
And somedays when I except her to fix my body...she stays settle with "Sweetheart I can't. I wish I could but I love you just the way God made you!"
A Dad who tries to still protect me and my heart.
While we still are waiting on test results...I can't help but think that while WE are waiting he is crafting me in the person he wants me to be.
Go the extra mile this week because I PROMISE it's worth it!
Make someone else feel as loved as these beautiful people have me.
Note:It is really not easy to watch others go through battles when there is nothing you can do but pray for them.
I encourage each one of you to show someone the grace that has been shown to me in the last two weeks while the journey has been beyond frustrating.
"Your life is worth something. The cross was the sign."
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